If you can help it, don’t develop an eating disorder. Don’t want it.. It doesn’t make anything better.
My stomach is shrinking on the inside. I’m not hungry. I’m getting over the stomach flu, and it may be that but in just 4 short hours I will have not ate anything in 24 hours. And whenever I do eat, my stomach enlarges dramatically and I hate it. Lowers my self-esteem by a 1000. So I love it when there’s nothing in my stomach. I don’t look the way I want but I sure do feel better about my appearance, which is sad.. What a shame. I wish I was hungry. I just need to work out and gain muscle and then I can start eating a lot while staying unbloated like I did a year ago. I miss that. But it doesn’t help when you’re going through a tough situation with a boyfriend/girlfriend.
What a shame.. Proud yet embarrassed- all for the wrong reasons.